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She is walking along the street,
The sun smiles in her eyes,
She's so light and she's so sweet
It seems she soars in skies...

She is happy like no-one else,
She's brighter than the stars.
She doesn't know that cruel people
Won't let her spread those sparks:

they'll destroy her life,
they'll kill her faith in love,
they'll fake,
they'll forsake,
they'll poison
'till she is like them -
poor,
unhappy,
miserable,
thirsting of filth,
desiring misfortune,
killing innocent dreams
and enjoying the nothingness they are.

My sugar girl, my innocent,
I know you're happy now,
But be careful, don't show it up,
Protect it from the crowd.

They will steal it away from you
And tear it all apart,
They'll squeeze it up 'till heavens burst,
They'll drain your soul and heart. ...

***

Կհիշես, կհիշես մի օր ինձ
Գալիքի խորունկ ծալքերում`
Որպես հնացած ծանոթի`
Մոռացված փոշոտ հուշերում:

Կհիշես… Ու գուցե ժպտաս`
Հիշելով օրերը անցած,
Երջանիկ պատանուն, որ դու էիր,
Ու մեր սերն` անդարձ հեռացած…

Քո մտքի հեռվում, խորքերում
Կգտնես դու մի ավերակ,
Նրա մոտ` հանգած մի խարույկ,
Շատ վաղուց մարած մի կրակ…

Կքայլես հուշերիդ մայթերով,
Կտրվես դու դրանց հմայքին,
Կնայես թախծալի աչքերով,
Կցանկաս վերապրել դա կրկին…

Ու սրտիդ սառույցից մի բեկոր
Կհալվի ու արցունք կդառնա,
Ու աչքիդ փոքրիկ անկյունից
Կկաթի հուշերիդ վրա:

Իսկ հետո… Հետո այդ արցունքը
Աննկատ գոլորշի կդառնա:
Քեզ կրկին կտիրի մոռացումը
Ու այլևս երբեք տեղի չի տա…


© C.S.
(Black Snakey CactuSoul)

“Don’t be afraid! I’ll let your Spirit die!..”

I was crawling slowly towards that powerful Voice coming from the distant depths of the Emptiness around.

“Come to Me, my sweet Dirty Thing! Come… and enjoy the Pain of Death!..”

My bruised Sanity persuaded me to turn back, but it was no use. Something much greater pulled me further and further in the way of that distant voice growling in Darkness.

“I’ll save your Soul from Light! Trust Me!..”

Where were I going? I didn’t know that. My thoughts… Did I have them? - I guess no. I felt a pressing Emptiness inside that round-shaped box called Head.

“Come and get all the Filth I have within! Don’t abuse your Lust!..”

I heard a chaotic noise. It was very loud and strong. Frightened screams… sighs of thousands of people, like they’re doing sex at the same time… voices of mourning women… All these sounds… were rolling in my Head… together… ...

Maybe I love, maybe I live…
Maybe I hope, maybe I dream…
Maybe I'm hiding from eyes that stare…
Maybe I'm too much in despair…
Maybe the Sun has no more Grace…
Maybe my Soul longs to the Space…
Maybe I'm wrong, but maybe right…
Maybe I'm one that's out of sight…
Maybe I'm strong enough to fight…
Maybe I'm stranding to the Light…
Maybe I'm down to one last cry…
…Though on the ground, still wish to fly…
Maybe I sleep, or I'm awake…
Maybe I need to have a break…
Maybe I'm gloomy, maybe I shine…
Maybe I shiver from the Sun…
Maybe I smile, maybe I don't…
Maybe there's a hole in my boat…
Maybe I need to know the Truth…
Maybe my Tree has got no Root…
Maybe it's good to do mistakes…
Maybe I am the one who cares…
Maybe I have some human Fears…
Maybe I'm drowning in my own Tears…
* ...

Someday I'll wake up and find out
that I don't love You
Someday my eyes will shine again
and I won't cry for You
Someday I'll see that my Sweet Dreams
have nothing to do with You
And then my Fears will fade away,
so far away, like You...

Someday the Things won't resemble
anything about You
Someday my Wings will let me fly
as high as I want to
Someday Flowers will blossom in
the Desert left behind You
And then Angels will laugh around
and I won't feel so blue.

Someday there'll be Spring again
in the Heart of mine
Someday I'll be free again
like Birds fly in the Sky
Someday my Life will turn the page,
the Torture will pass me by
And then my Smile will shine again
and I will face the Sun.

Someday these painful Tears will dry,
I'll get back my Pride
...